Do you ever feel like if you held your breathe and closed your eyes your head would explode? I tend to say that my head will explode when I have too much going on. Usually because I feel like I have 10 things to think about and they all need to be thought about right this second.
I think this is possibly where any OCD tendencies I have might come out – like I have to finish job 1 before I can even think about Job 2 and unfortunately my job doesn’t allow it really.
I work in Customer service and on the whole I like my job. I like being able to help people and hear the relief in their voice when we’ve managed to fix the issue. But then there are the rude customers, the ones that wanted their delivery last week before they’d even placed the order. Most of the time I can handle them but I’ve had ones in the past who have reduced me to tears.
Me and my colleague in the US regularly compare the differences. You know how the saying goes “the grass is always greener on the other side” I’d say out of 10 occurrence my colleague has it better but I think I’d pick the UK team any day lol.
But each day I go home from work mentally exhausted. Some days to the point of tears because I just can’t get my brain round what’s happening next. Chris has this way of arriving home from work and bombarding me with information and Our Sidekick sometimes does it too. So we have this rule of sorts in our house that when I arrive home from work, unless I approach one of them first I just have to be left for like 10 minutes to shake off my grumpy from work and then pick up my semi happy for at home.
There are some changes that might be coming about and some I’m excited about and others worry the pants off me. But rather than burying my head I’m trying to do something about it.
(Heads up bible bit coming!!)
So as part of The Sermon on the Mount, Jesus talks about not worrying about tomorrow.
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Part way through last week (And after reading this post from Ali at Ballpioint+Pen) I decided I needed to get my butt in gear – I always had time to watch a DVD or TV but never had time to read my bible. I was always too busy.
So I made a conscious decision to pull my finger out and read more. Rather than diving in head first and then pulling my hair out because I didn’t understand it I decided to start with something easy (ish!). I’m currently reading a chapter a day during the week and then a 4 Psalms across the weekend (Psalm 119 is going to be interesting I need to check the plan to find out what happens there!). So on Monday I was on Matthew 6 which includes the above verses, today is Matthew 9 – I haven’t read it yet but by bedtime I will have.